Statement of Purpose

After learning piano for 7 years, I still fail in writing my own music. A lot of my friends can make up their own music with a base that matches the melody or listen to a song they like and then compose it. I can't do that. I've tried and I still can't make the left hand match with the right hand. Sometimes I even go on YouTube to look for tutorials but it's too hard for me, so the only thing I do is look for the sheet music on the internet then play.
Other than making up my own music or learning by ear, I still have piano lessons that my teacher gives me books with pieces to play which I think is very boring. I'm also currently learning exam pieces. Right now I'm in the 5th grade. There are 8 levels. My teacher said I can skip 6th to 7th because it's pretty much the same thing. I've taken the 5th grade exam last year, but I failed it; I couldn't get a 100%, instead I got a 90 and I still didn't pass. I think it isn't fair because 90 should be considered as passing and I can't believe I have to retake it again. When I found out I didn't pass, I got so upset that I started procrastinating by playing the songs I print out, therefore I barely remember how to play the exam pieces. I'm disappointed in myself, but recently I thought to myself, "Come on Elaine. Get it together now. You almost passed it, just keep going!"
After school, I practice piano for an hour and I have to admit that I've improved a lot too. Hopefully the next time I take the exam, I'll pass and won't have a super strict judge.
Even though I fail at almost everything about piano and hate the songs my piano teacher gives me, I still love it so much. This is probably a gift I've found about myself. It's also perfect to help me to be calm. Hopefully I will pass 8th grade before I graduate high school and maybe in the future, I can teach kids how to play piano too. :)